I’ve been thinking about pain recently.
Whenever I try to explain my spanking kink to a new acquaintance, I make sure to mention I’m not really into pain. In fact, my pain tolerance is quite low, and it doesn’t take much to have me screaming. I think it’s important that new playmates know that to help me have a good time, you’ve got to get inside my head.
However, weirdly, sometimes I will get a pain craving, and it doesn’t go away until I’ve had my fill. I have no idea what causes it, but sometimes all I need is a pure dose of pain, undiluted with any particular headspace other than knowing we’re both having a good time.
I wonder what causes this personality switch. It can be pretty inconvenient for playmates, I guess, because neither I or they can predict what mood I’m going to be in when playtime comes. It’s a recent development, and it’s puzzling me a great deal.
Does anybody else switch between headspace and sensation play preferences?
Totally. I’m not usually in it for pain, I’d rather play longer and less hard than short and intense. I’m more in it for the submission than the pain, but sometimes I get that exact feeling, complete pain craving. Interesting how these things ebb and flow.
Dare I suggest that part of it may be hormonal. I mean that in a serious and helpful way. Hormones can convert to neurotransmitters. When hormones go up and down, they affect desires and can make something that at one level would be unattractive suddenly become attractive.
An experiment you might consider is tracking when you are having your cravings and see if there is a pattern.
Of course, it may also have to do with the stimulations you get from your environment. Many things in the environment can trigger specific thoughts. Being in a particular place or seeing a particular object might remind you of a specific experience that relates to particular needs.
I am primarily in it for the pain, most of the time, but there are times when the pain doesn’t feel like the objective. (Sometimes they coincide with times when my pain tolerance is down, but not always.)