It was ten years ago today that I took the amazing, brave, scary step into the unknown and delurked on the internet, posting a story to the soc.sexuality.spanking newsgroup. The comments were kind; the police didn’t come knocking at my front door, so more stories and posts followed.
With them came the emails, and with them the new friendships that started to form. Before very long, I started to realise that I didn’t need to feel guilty about those guilty secrets I’d been keeping. (And how was I to know that then-eighteen-year-old student in Ukraine would be downloading my writing, and what that would lead to?!) .
I’ve been re-reading my stories over the past few weeks – 67 of them, remarkably, not counting my writing for the Lowewood blog. Many published, some shared only with friends. (I’m trying to narrow the list down for an anthology of my favourites – watch this space! And we do keep meaning to update our stories site online).
Some things remain the same. The build-up is often the point of the story – I love creating a credible scenario, explaining the background, setting the scene. My girls aren’t usually incurably bad, used to regular punishment, but rather good girls who’ve suddenly fallen from grace.
They certainly don’t enjoy it – and neither do the gentlemen wielding the rod. I’m writing about punishment, not pleasure – set in the schoolroom rather than the bondage club. And there’s little or no sex, even though there may be dark hints of entanglements to come…
But what interests me more is how my writing’s changed, matured even. And it certainly has, not surprisingly – when I wrote my first stories, I was a spanking virgin, writing purely from imagination. (LOL and I wasn’t far off being a virgin in other regards, too!).
Four changes really strike me. First, nudity. OK, I confess – I like, love the sight of naked women. In my early stories, girls were regularly stripped for punishment – now, that’s rarer and more appropriate to the scene being played out.
The offenders had it harder, back then: twenty strokes and a girl got off lightly! Not that some of my more recent writing hasn’t featured harsh punishment – but that tends to be the exception rather than the rule, and more likely to be in a judicial setting that anywhere scholastic.
There’s the description of the individual strokes – now less onomatopoeic: I’ve found more creative ways to describe punishments than with a “WHACK! CRACK! THWACK!” repeated a dozen times.
And the girls themselves rarely get described in physical detail. Not because I don’t have a vivid picture of them in mind when I’m writing: I usually do. But I want my readers to relate: sometimes, to put themselves in the shoes (or bare feet) of the young lady being thrashed. And if a reader’s short and fair, and the main character’s described as being tall and dark, that could be alienating, off-putting.
Does that mean I don’t enjoy my older writing? Not at all – I’ve been delighted in my re-reading to find how much I like it. There are some hot scenes in there, waiting to be resurrected in real-life play. But ten years on, life’s improved so much for the better, and I’d like to think that my writing has, too.