Haron reflects about the choice kinky people have to make: to pursue their interests in real life, or to leave them well alone.
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Haron reflects about the choice kinky people have to make: to pursue their interests in real life, or to leave them well alone.
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I still find it *so* weird hearing your voice all on it’s own without you!
This is a very complex, yet familiar topic for me and one that I’ve struggled with now for quite some time.
I’ve lived at various times in the past not at all in the kink and at other times quite actively in the kink. Presently, I am very much on the periphery of WIITWD–occasional writing, a good deal of reading, very minimal play and never in a role-playing environment when I do. That means I’m often at odds with myself about where I am, where I think I want to be, and where I should be.
I go back and forth how I feel about where I am in the kink at the present. Some times the emotional ache of what I want and am missing is acute. Other times I’ve filled that place with other *things*–other interests, other people who I know will never share WIITWD who *do* share my interests outside the kink. When I keep myself overloaded with other things it doesn’t push away the desires, but makes them livable, at least in the short term.
Long-term, I don’t know where I ultimately go. I can’t see me giving this part of me up, yet I’m wired so that casual play isn’t a big draw for me, at least for a sustained period of time. I need more of bond, unless it is a specific scene or a party environment (which I’m not big on), but in my experience, anyone who has been into this part of my life has not been into the vanilla parts and vice versa.
I’ll be interested in reading about how others live and deal with this choice.
EM
It’s certainly an interesting thing to ponder. Would I want go back to how my life was this time last year? Well, no is the short answer. I’ve loved having kink in my life, and for me kink and sex are very much synonymous, so at the moment losing one would probably mean losing the other which would suck big time. I think one of the main reasons that I would be unwilling to go back to a life without kink is that so many of my friendships are tied up in it. It’s not just about the spanking itself, it’s about the friends that I’ve made, the people I’ve met ect, and that as much as the enjoyment of actual kink per se, is why I wouldn’t want to go without.
Hi Haron,
I too am fortunate to have discovered my kink early in adult life. I met a man who really enjoyed spanking me, and he still does! As Scarlett said, spanking is an integral part of our sexuality.
I suppose I can imagine a life without spanking, but the thought makes me very sad.
Hugs,
Bonnie
PS – Thanks to you and Abel for providing our dear Kelley with such lovely inspiration.