It’s funny how my spanking personae – in scenes, in fantasies – seem to split into two pretty even camps.
There’s “nice me”. Not that nice, you understand, as I’m thrashing girls and hurting them. But my character’s calm, rational, restrained. The schoolmaster slippering a girl at the front of the class, the housemaster caning her in his study? The butler administering punishment with a carpet beater to the miscreant maid? A guardian, removing his belt in the library? A prison officer with a birching to administer?
In each case, there’s a clear formula. Rules broken, consequences clear. A finite (or logical) duration or number of strokes, administered hard – but with an abiding sense of compassion for the girl, of doing it because she deserves it. Ultimately, it’s for her own good and – in an exemplary sense, in terms of upholding the rule of law – the good of others. There’s a connection between my character and the girl with whom I’m dealing. If she suffers, cries even, I’ll doubtless feel sympathy: punishing her may not be easy.
And then there’s “nasty me”, usually well hidden and (frankly) usually less at the heart of my kink. The gangmaster who’s just bought a girl who needs taming. The mafia boss who’s been disobeyed. The gaoler taking a girl he particularly likes to the punishment cell, just because he can. The punishment officer merciless as he flogs the newly-sentenced lass, quite immune to any sense of sympathy, knowing he’ll never see her again. The businessman taking his pleasure from a girl who’s been sent his way. The gentleman in the country house, whose female staff live in fear of their all-powerful employer.
Harsh, heartless, cold, pitiless. Abusive, even. Beating girls, rather than punishing them. A side of my kink that’s perhaps too deeply suppressed. Somehow I feel the need to inflict a little more cruelty…
Teeheee, ‘Mafia Boss Abel’. Oh, you are a funny boy!
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I think a bit of both is good. As a sub sometimes the more restrained ‘for your own good’ play is good, sometimes evils bastards are fun. As long as it’s all consensual then I think a bit of both is pretty perfect. Much like being ‘good’ as a sub and unleashing hell…
I have a much harder time imagining you in these truly evil roles now that I’ve met you in real life. Funny, because when I first started reading your blog, I had the same mental picture of you than I did of Mr Malfoy. You’ll probably have to get someone to explain that last bit to you. 😉
@Indy – Lol more like Snape now ?
What always strikes me is that with ‘evil’ scenarios the potential for decrease in empathy and increase in cruelty is mirrored in both players. There is licence for deeper mind games and greater verbal hostility.
Given that there is always some unpredictability, however well scripted the ‘play’ , we rely a huge amount on underlying trust and the ability to act on our limits real time so I guess it is not that surprising if we put the brakes on sometimes.
Beathing girls rather than punishing them….yes…it’s what you should do.
Abel, you and I know in our everloving hearts, which we would rather be like. Of course with a name like mine, I let you guess?
Cordelia remembers “Nasty Abel” very well indeed… It’s seriously intense for both top and bottom, and I couldn’t go there very often. But sometimes, it’s the most amazing buzz, to have that level of trust as much as anything. Hot stuff!
Well, I must comment again, because your post had me thinking off and on all evening…I think you should mix the nasty with the smalles ammount of nice.
What if it were a gangster taming a girl, or a punishment officer mercilessly flogging a girl he will never see again…and yet..and yet..there is something slightly different about him. Here is a sadistic man who has the spark of kindness in him.
I don’t know about others, but there is always that hope in a scene–you want him to enjoy his cruelty to the max, but you also want there to be some remnant of sanity or kindness. Even if they are such opposites.
My type of play is very much based on the “nice” variety – but I have to admit that the part of this post that got my heart beating had nothing whatsoever to do with nice.
Such great comments. (LOL nice to have these to read having woken up at a ridiculously early hour).
@sixofthebest – surely to encourage ‘evil’, you’d need to chnage your name to (say) fiftyofthebest?
@Martha – somehow a scene in which a girl was pushed, naked, into the corridor at a hotel comes to mind…?
@Bonnie-jo – I love the idea of the girl trying to find the kindness underlying the evil. His ‘sanity’ is without question – my ‘evil’ would (I think) be calm, quiet rather than angry, shouting. And there’d be a rational pretext for the punishment. That would, presumably, give the girl hope of finding kindness – but ‘evil me’ would offer none.
@Em – I guess if you combine this post with the image of the handcuffs Haron posted, you might get an interesting combination!
I love both nice and nasty Abel. Although nasty Abel doesn’t come out too often, so when he does it’s far more impactful! You were a cruel mafia boss, but our worst scene was when you were the workhouse warden and you and HH gave me the cane welts that lasted forever!
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