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Roleplay is, and always has been, the (non-vanilla-world) thing that provides me with the most satisfaction. Nothing compares to a carefully-planned scene: an appealing premise; characters sketched out; a plot mapped in sufficient detail; time in advance to ponder the detail – and to anticipate and prepare. With groups or, in for me its most intimate format, with just one play partner: two people in a room connecting, with the girl’s vulnerability resulting from a shared mutual kink and from deep trust.
Yet I’ve not played a pre-planned scene for many, many months. Sure, there were a couple of very, very, very lovely roleplays in Vegas – but both were relatively spontaneous, the scenarios determined pretty much immediately before play. And I’ve relished play of a different variety with other dear friends – non-roleplaying situations in which (to fit with their preferences and experience) I’ve tended to be less of a top and more dominant (which works well for me, but isn’t quite the same as being deep in role).
More worryingly, perhaps, for my sometimes-fragile self-esteem, is that none of the last few roleplay scenes that have been on the horizon, with various different play partners, has gone ahead as planned. All for good, understandable reasons. I’m not feeling paranoid. Not quite. But I miss my core kink, and the confidence that flows from roleplaying well. I wish I could find a way to get back into it.
I haven’t role played for such a long time, I tend to react to the person, rather than develope a persona. I do lack in confidence so pure role play scares the pants off me. But being an avid reader I so wish I could become the naughty girl in the story..playing a role could easily put me in that craved for place.
I haven’t done roleplay for ages either – I think a certain fab evening with you and mutual friends back in January might have been the last time – but Richard and I have a scene planned for this evening.
I’m really nervous – not because of the scene itself so much but because I’m worried that it might feel silly or awkward or that we might just not be able to connect in a kinky way through roleplay anymore. It worked so well when we first met and didn’t really know each other but now, when we are so very close and intimate and know pretty much all there is to know about each other…? I’m not sure.
I hope things work out for you roleplay-wise and you find a way to make it fit into your life again x.
Blush – it can be awkward the first couple of times, but when you can lose yourself in the role, it is wonderful!
Faye – I really hope this evening goes well. Let us all know?! Hugs x
Oh, it was lush :-). I was a member of the women chainmakers union who had gone on strike and he was my (frankly evil) husband who was having none of it. Mmm, we should definitely go to the Black Country Museum more often – it’s great for ‘inspiration’ 😉 x
Faye – yay! So pleased it worked well. Your hsuband sounds like he was entirely right to deal with his wife for striking. I hope (and am sure that) you were suitably sorry – and obedient – by the time he had punished you… 😉
(Temporarily) sorry and (temporarily) obedient ;-). I don’t think my highly principled character would have stayed that way for very long with a husband who threatens to knock her teeth out, thrashes her, rapes her and then orders her to spend the night sleeping on the kitchen floor… x
Dear lord, Faye, that has to be the hottest comment in the seven year history of this blog!